I would tell my younger self to look out for queerness as a turning point, queer theory, queer people. After moving to Melbourne 6 years ago, I did not expect that queerness and intersectional feminism has been the missing link in my studies and training in mental health specifically. I would tell my younger self to just hang in there. You’re not going to find the missing piece from academic elders, you’re going to find it in the queer community for your own personal healing. To be able to work in a more rounded way, to be able to solve problems or help relationships – it’s gender roles that are hurting people. That was huge. That idea was absent from the first 10 years of trying to work on my trauma.
When I started my journey to create a Queer Tarot Deck, I didn’t know any already existed. Now that I am so far into this project, I have discovered, found and been sent so many links of wonderful, inspiring work that has been created, recently and many years ago. Here I aim to list and honour decks that I love, own, recommend or have simply be told about.
Queering 3 of Cups: Relationship Anarchy Realising the core of who I am isn’t some set of expectations I have about myself or the people around me. We are all much more powerful, than we let ourselves think a lot of the time, around what kind of experiences we want. We are the authors and subjects of our own experiences.
I live my life in and out of love, it’s not a very stable place – so * the Ace of Cups is* returning to self pleasure and developing that practice. There is a lovely masterbation meditation that I talk about with friends. I think that the universe loves you – that’s why you’ve pulled this card, its here to tell you there is this overwhelming wash of support for you
I’m choosing to be Guardian of Wands also because Wands represent the open and written word, with no gender associated with it. Queering the Court Cards.
They then have the responsibility for the way they communicate, what they have to say, and how they inter relate with the world.
Queering the 2 of Pentacles: I’ve done lots of overtone singing with washing machines and fridges, buzzes and hums from the industrial environment I live in, and I particularly resonate with washing machines. Ive done some intense ritual work with a washing machine, I’ve a tattoo of a washing machine. I sometimes only half jokingly say that “washing machines are my spirit animal”. We are at “My beautiful Laundrette” in Melbourne, which is also a beautiful queer film from the 80’s set in England. It makes me really happy that this place exists.
That’s the 3 of Wands, it’s when your planning is done and is enough, and you have this future ahead of you. I think there is a strong and meaningful interaction between the Queer Community and the witchy, spiritually, semi occult community. I think it is resistance to the orthodox and a counter culture.
Queer Community Flags & Symbols I’ve designed the back of the Tarot Cards to represent Queer Community Magick & include as many queer community flags & symbols that represent gender & sexuality. These are correct to the best of my knowledge- if any need updating please let me know.
The Emotions, the love and the ripples of the water. The Queen of Cups is the pinnacle of honing in of that kind of energy which is something is something I strive for, being so emotionally sensitive. It’s dirty, it can be mirky water, it can be clean pristine water, waterfalls or the water that cuts through stone. I live in that kind of space in life, I know the darkness of it, and I know the light, and I’m a queen!
I would tell my younger self – don’t be afraid of owning your own power. You might be a quiet person, you might be shy but your voice is still valid in the world. Later on you will come into that voice. All those moments when you were brewing that power and thinking about things, come into play and people will hear that voice and respect it. The Queen of Wands – she’s sexy. She’s about fire, there’s a sexy, aliveness to her. I’m a cat person, hopefully not a lonely cat person, but find that power, that spark that fires you up.